I can’t believe the transfer day has come and gone! It was such a long, tiring process, but the home stretch wasn’t too bad. The week of the transfer was relatively calm because I was off and able to take care of last minute details and make it to acupuncture appointments without work getting in the way. I’ve been doing the Circle and Bloom meditations everyday. I did uterine massage everyday after my period ended. I exercised up to the day of transfer. After transfer, I have been a couch potato as much as possible. I did have to work a few midnights, but managed to get the 48 hour modified bed rest that was recommended.
The day of the transfer, we went into the doctor’s office around 8:15am. We found out we were their only transfer that day, so we got their undivided attention. Our doctor was not there. That was no surprise. We had only seen him once. From what I had read, I was expecting it to be one of the lower doctors on the totem pole, especially since it was on a weekend. I’m actually glad he wasn’t there. The doctor who did the procedure was a woman, and she had a great bedside manner. I think I needed it that day.
When they called us back, we were ushered into a small room with a tilting chair and an ultrasound machine. We met the embryologist who looked like she couldn’t have been older than 28. She explained that she had selected two excellent embryos for us and handed us pictures of them. Well, we had told the doctor (who wasn’t there) that we only wanted to transfer a single embryo. Also, both embryos she selected were fertilized via ICSI instead of IVF. That freaked me out a little. I felt like I didn’t know enough about ICSI. I thought they only used ICSI when the sperm were not able to fertilize the egg on their own. Apparently, that’s not the case at our clinic. I looked at the SART data, and 75% of their cases used ICSI in 2010. The embryologist said that it makes no difference as far as the embryo quality or the health of the baby, and the embryos she picked out were excellent and already beginning to hatch. I still needed the doctor to reassure me, and there is a tiny part of me that wonders if we did the right thing. I should have done more research and asked more questions once I got the embryologists report on Tuesday that said half the eggs were fertilized via ICSI. I know our clinic has an amazing success rate. They know what they’re doing. I just worry that they do not follow up on these babies later in life. Yeah sure, you get a “healthy” baby at birth, but what could go wrong later because of all of the tampering with the egg and sperm. I have decided to put all of these doubts away and be positive that this embryo is our baby-to-be. It will be healthy and perfect. It is the little soul we have been hoping and praying would come into our lives.
Prior to showing up at the doctor’s office, they asked me to drink 32 oz of water. My bladder was full, but I didn’t think it was uncomfortable when we got there. When they did a prelim ultrasound, the nurse noticed it was too full. She had me empty part of my bladder. Well, I didn’t empty enough. I had to go back and forth to the bathroom 5 times before I got it right. The bladder needs to be somewhat full to help them distinguish the bladder from the uterus on ultrasound.
The procedure itself was very simple. They inserted a catheter into the uterus, using ultrasound as a guide. The embryo was put in a “straw” and ejected into the uterus by flushing a small amount of liquid through the straw. I felt a little pinching, but noting major. They let me lay down listening to Enya for 20 minutes with my husband by my side after the procedure. He was a little choked up. It was sweet. After the 20 minutes were up, they had me empty my bladder and they sent us off with instructions for my medications. No real changes:
1 CC progesterone in oil injected every morning
2 progesterone capsules inserted vaginally twice a day
1 estradiol tablet twice a day
continue switching out the Vivelle patches every 3 days
The embryologist called the next day with the report on the embryos that were frozen. We have 10 total! 6 in individual straws and 2 double straws. 7 were rated excellent and 3 were rated good. Like my acupuncturist said, we could have a Brady Bunch if we wanted!
The doctor warned us that I should not pay attention to any “pregnancy symptoms” because all of the drugs I’m taking will make me feel pregnant. I did notice that the progesterone is starting to accumulate in my body. My breasts are a bit more sore (but not nearly as much as on birth control pills), and I have more gas than usual. That’s really it for symptoms. I don’t feel anxious or worried about getting pregnant. I’m glad we have lots of other chances in the freezer. I think that takes the pressure off. That being said, I’m not thrilled with the idea of having to go through all of this again.
My husband has to go on a business trip on Monday. I’m scheduled to go in for my pregnancy test on Tuesday. He was feeling terrible about not being able to come to the appointment. I read online that since I did not take stimulation medication, I should be able to do a pregnancy test on Sunday before he leaves (9 days after the transfer of day 5 blasts). If it’s negative, we can have some time to grieve together before he leaves and plan for the next transfer. If it’s positive, we can celebrate. I’m incredibly hopeful. I feel like it is going to happen this time. When the embryologist showed us a picture of the egg we implanted she said “This will get you pregnant”. She’s the expert, so my hopes are high.